The Juxtaposition of a Warrior’s Way

The Juxtaposition of a Warrior’s Way

I am a Warrior.

That much I know for sure.

I have not lived this life without conflict, resistance, or chaos. I have lived with peace, joy, love, and harmony. Yes. But the darker shades of being are always present. Always sliding in rippling music underneath my skin.

My blood carries songs of days long past, and I welcome openly all the senses these musings gift to me. Even those of nightmares.

Fear is a gateway to transcendence. It makes us aware of the unwants along our strands of the Web. Fear calls our instincts to action.

Do we fight or run the other way?

I prefer to fight. This can take many forms: fighting through the negative fears and doubts to get to the positivity; fighting through a personal dilemma to come to a solution; fighting through a tragedy to heal emotional (and sometimes physical) wounds. There are countless ways in which we fight every day. Sometimes we run away from it all.

But the key to fear is that we should not fight against it (usually the thought of fighting against something bigger than ourselves is what causes us to run from our problems), but rather fight through it. Fighting through rather than against is what helps us become more of ourselves. Fighting through that which we fear rather than against it is opening up to the possibilities of strength and growth. Fighting against something is futile.

Change is ever constant, we can always count on it, and change offers ways to evolve and become stronger, better versions of ourselves. Fighting against change is pointless; fighting through that change and attendant fear is where we give ourselves the opportunity to come out the other side…changed.

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Fear awakens our senses, our darker reptilian instincts that, in my spirituality, should be conquered. Fought through. Our base selves will call out to us: fight or run; and we must call on our higher selves to fight. To wage a war through the resistance that we don’t want. Fight to find the solutions, fight to overcome the fear of change, to fight through emotional doubts and challenges so we can become stronger and more ingrained in who we are, what morals we hold, and how we handle ourselves in future circumstances.

Never fight against change or challenge, but fight through it, and the obstacles will fall away.

 

 

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Through the Garden Gate

Through the Garden Gate

Memories seduce me as I tread upon the moist ground that weaves through these Florida flowers. Music is on my mind, a melody upon my lips, entrancing and requiring an emotion I’m not quite sure of.

The feeling plays over me like a wave, shimmering tears from the corners of my eyes. My Grandmother is gone. One can never be quite prepared, no matter how many years pass. She was ninety-eight. Passed through Death’s door during the Solar eclipse, at a time between the changing to full spring.

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Bittersweet is the only word to describe it. I’d already begun to miss her, as if who she was had already died under the onslaught of dementia several years ago. That time was the time I had already begun to let go.

This final end to biological life is the last puzzle piece. Of course I miss her, but I have missed her, and of course I grieve, but I have grieved.

But I also celebrate.

We are so fleeting, so infinitesimal. Our lives are but fine silk threads that can be snapped, cut off, in a split moment. Even though Death is merely another part of the journey, the conscious life we are given is such a fragile thing. Memories are reminders of this very fact.

The flowers greet me in happy colors, yellows and blues and purples, nodding soft petals and bright foliage in my direction as I step through some of the overgrowth of the trees and shrub of the butterfly garden. Insects of dreamy hues flit from blossom to blossom, reminding me to still myself.

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Meditation beneath the grapefruit tree, surrounded by healing plants, listening to my breath, the breeze, the life. Memories.

We are conduits to our Ancestors. We are conduits to our descendants. But we only have moments. Only moments to live and love and die.

So I still myself. I plop right down and let everything else fade into the distance as I listen to my self, my life force, my mortality. I close my eyes and just be.

And I emerge refreshed, renewed, awakened and ready for my tasks and responsibilities. In the clean air and morning light, when the dew sparkles as brightly upon the fresh growth of ideas as it does on the Florida primrose at my feet, goals are clearer. Purpose is crystal.

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I have my Grandmother to thank for such discipline. To use what she taught me about my sense of self to seek inward reflection and assessment. To look at each beautiful thing and to be thankful to be alive and breathing.

And to always use our fleeting time wisely, in all things pursuing a way to better myself and those around me.

Under the dark Moon

Under the dark Moon

The new moon is here, which means another turning of the lunar year. Now is the time to enter cleansing mode; the art of release is the energy focus for the next week.

And the proximity of Imbolg to this weekend’s New/Dark Moon has release, cleansing, & planning written all over it. This is a time for introspection, making goals, and releasing old and no longer useful energies and patterns. With this lunar phase, though, the need for release and cleansing seems higher.

When release is achieved and cleansing has been completed, planning can be started to later accomplish the goals we set for ourselves now.

When practicing the art of release, essentially we have to cleanse/clean. This can manifest as physical cleaning and de-cluttering of our living and working spaces, and it can manifest within our Selves–spiritually, mentally, and emotionally cleansing or releasing.

So take this time, this turning of the Moon, to release that which no longer serves you, to cleanse your spaces, and to listen to your inner Self. Plans and goals should be tended and worked toward at this time, and nighttime dreams should be accounted for. Try keeping a dream journal for quick writing when waking. Believe it or not, our Dream Selves are a very real part of us. They can intimate many knowings if we just listen.

The following are suggestions to help begin this process; most of all, let it come from the Heart, and harmony and new opportunities will be invited in once the old has been released.

  • Throw open windows, let in sunlight, hang crystals & chimes in the windows (& other parts of the house) to help release stale air & energy & help invite fresh air & clean energy
  • Bring in plants; ivy, pothos, succulents, fuschias, African violets, etc. can make great houseplants because they don’t require direct or overbearing sunlight. They’ll also raise the vibrations & good juju in the home.
  • Dust, sweep, vacuum, mop; do all these things like Spring cleaning fever. The act of sweeping (this can also be achieved symbolically with sweeping motion) itself is both physical and spiritual: dust & dirt are swept out, as are negative energies & emotions.
  • Smudge (with windows open to help release the energy & bring in the fresh), burn candles, burn incense; the act of ‘burning’ cleanses the air & negative energies to make receptive to higher vibrations & energies.
  • Toss the synthetic air fresheners and cleaners, and opt for all-natural: boil cinnamon sticks for a spicy aroma, add a few drops of essential oil (like lavender, basil, rosemary, or mint) to your mop water or cleaning water, and even opt for an aromatherapy oil burner.
  • Write, write, write; keep a journal, log your goals & your steps to accomplish them, record your dreams, make lists of your daydreams, etc. This is release, good release, & it’ll help you listen to your inner voice.

As the energies from Imbolg fade into the distance, Dark Moon reminds us to look inward, to dream, and to recognize our true callings. Pull those inward thoughts out and release them onto paper–in a journal, as a list of goals, aspirations, hopes, etc. Use these dreams to make goals that will help you get to where you want to go on Life’s path.

Now is the perfect time to plan out the steps toward reaching any goals that you do want to set for yourself, and the careful planning and hard work will pay off later in the year. Whether it relates to career, finances, family, romance, friendship, etc., planning goals and dreaming big will help keep you focused throughout the remainder of 2016–and the year of the Monkey!

But even though hard work is necessary and daunting at times, it will bring its rewards. Just don’t let “all work” be your main focus that it becomes passionless. Play, laugh, create something new, and keep dreaming.

Blessings, Love & Light Xo

 

 

 

[Image courtesy of UniverseToday.com; “Photo of the Moon shows its far side. The image was taken by NASA’s Galileo spacecraft as it was speeding out on its journey to Jupiter.”]

Imbolg Cleansing

Imbolg Cleansing

Imbolg has come and gone, and this weekend’s New Moon has me itchy. I apologize for being away for..well, forever it seems. I wanted to post on Imbolg, if only to give a quick card reading and daily blessing, but I had the cleaning fever.

My small space had been a literal cluster fuck of odds and ends, and honestly, if it weren’t for my hubby our junk drawers never would’ve been cleaned. So I took the initiative and threw open the windows, raised the vibrations with sunlight and music, and began the process of out with the old and in with the new.

 

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Dust got swept away along with decaying energies. My ceiling fans, blinds, curtains, and sills have been cleansed of debris–spiritual and microbial. And, wow, I have gardens outside so why the hell haven’t I bothered to bring that indoors? Honestly, I have no answer for that one. But I went classic with Ivy and Pothos. Can’t go wrong with Ivy and Pothos.

My crystals are set and ready to be drained of old and useless energies under this weekend’s Dark Moon, so I can cleanse and charge them when the Full Moon comes round again.

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And of course during this freaking crazy transition (all celestial cluster fuck too), writing and angst are co-creators. The waning moon transitioning into the new lunar year has been tough on me, and writing and crafting and musical expression have been keeping me, for the most part, from pure insanity.

All in all, it’s been good really. I am so grateful for who and what I have in my life that I truly feel like I got this. As if my joy in cleansing my spaces (yes, I actually am loving cleaning this time around) and releasing that which no longer serves me will invite much needed harmonious frequencies into my home.

I hope everyone had a blessed Imbolg/Saint Brigid’s Day/Candlemas 🙂 Blessings, Love & Light Xo